Silent Lover

dear,

if you give up on a plan A, you gotta make sure plan B go smooth. sometimes plan A might have a lil hope which no one realize it until its too late. never give up on plan A until plan B is successful. its a lesson i learn recently through a book i read.

in my life, i have taken so many life changing choices. and so do you all. one will never know the ending before it comes.

i look upon you, as my true hero. a hero which saves me from the ripper, however u left me in mute. i wasnt able to speak, to tell, to describe, the hurt in heart. i hate this feel. i hate that i love you. why would someone turn their back on me, after they save me? well, you have left me feeling numb. i have no feeling towards anyone or even anything now.



i give up on every plan i have now as i know, nothing much is better than being alone, spending time on family, so much more we can do with a single life.

thanx to those who have done so to me

dear,

yesterday night or maybe some call it this morning, a line have been drawn in my life. i was still unable to overcome my obstacles before. as of yesterday, i think and i hope everything will be fine from now onwards.

vicky liew - a very nice girl i ever known in my entire life. she will accompany you through ups and downs together. she cry when u cry, she laugh when u laughs.

clovey wong - though i just knew her for that short lil time, she save me out from being a silly person in my life which is the relationship. she showed me what this world mean.

vicky liew change my life a lot. and i mean really A LOT. and only she knows, i know, god knows. she might be childish and naughty at times, but this is her character and attitude. its not fair to change her. i have done so much for her, but she dont notice anything? can u see the details, and not see the pict as a whole? every lil details, completes the pict. you never appreciated what i have done for you.

clovey wong appeared in my life to tell me that not to be a stupid person. her advice was to be the man in charge and not let anyone lead my life. her advice was, indeed, very true. somehow for the words she said, my heart fell for her. i have never have this feeling with the opposite sex in the last 3 years.

all i ever wanted for the last 3 years was just vicky vicky and vicky. she was everything to me. i can give up anything for her which i know myself, is very sofo haifai. she save me out of thins thinking, she showed me what the world may mean. she show me i still have my family to care. i really would like to thank her with all my heart. if she did not appear, i, will still be, the silliest person ever.

dear,

before i continue any further, would like to wish myself a happy birthday. thanx for those tiny frenz which make a big difference on this day. though just a few of them, im taking this opportunity to thanks them.. thanks to vicky liew, clovey wong, angeline yee, eric tan, kelvin gan and also meikuen foo.

Well this year's bday i will not be celebrating with vicky liew anymore. she have found her love one and i wish her all the best. she might hate me, but i hope she can be happy with her new found love. well, all the best to you if you are reading this. take good care of yourself and please, do eat and do not, vomit, after eating. in this almost to 3 years relationship, i might have hurt her and made her cry or even suffer at times. sincerely, accept my apologize please.

So, this year i will be celebrating with clovey wong. its nice having her by my side. well, her singing vocal is perfectly good. her voice and vocal is a perfect combination. maybe she can be the next big star of malaysia.

and yeah, this post was written on 22/2/2010, but i failed to post it out for some what reason.

dear,

a song from eminem goes like this



"Look, if you had one shot, or one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted-One moment
Would you capture it or just let it slip?"

its a very meaningful quote. chances only comes for a time and then it will be gone with the wind. i have gave you so many chances, and you stil do not take the appreciation and be grateful of what you have. when the flame of the candle is almost been blow off, i tried my ver best just to keep it light. i kept it warm beside you. but you never seems to care. the candle i cant keep it alight anymore. i have used so much of my time, my energy, my life.



right now, i feel so tired. its like after 2 football match against MU. right now, i would just like to cool it off for a moment and depends on how the flow works.

you have break my heart again and again. and im sorry i do not want that to happen anymore. my heart is shattered like a broken glass drop on a rock. tiring and disappointment is the only 2 friends which follow me now.

anyway, i gotta call it off by now.

dear,



this year CNY and V-day falls on the same date. well, where am i? im with my frenz along. there wont be any day similar to V-day for me this year. yes, im currently single AGAIN. or maybe can say it's complicated. anywayz, who gives a damn? there is a quote i'd like to say ALWAYS, " a higher hope, a bigger disappointment".

this year V-day sucks for me. though im celebrating with my frenz, somehow deep inside me i feel lonely. a 3 years love, can just fall so easily. it really breaks my heart deep down.

long story short, all lies. everything start from a lie. why would someone create a lie and destroy the future of humanity.



dear LIE, you sucks. LIE, you could not fix anything but just to worsen it. you let LIE unnerve you. how could that be? how could you let LIE control you and your feelings? you let LIE put words in your mouth, your head, your mind.