Silent Lover

dear,

in my life, why is there so many disappointment? i rarely disappoint another person. well, rarely but there still is.

this girl have shown me a lesson, which is to get out of such a suffering love. well, sign, sealed and delivered. but what i dont even understand is how could she be the sofohaifai again. aint she wants to lead a better life? i dont understand at all. im jotting down here is because i do not want her to be such a SFHF.

she have been betrayed, disappoint, and now she is back to the where she would have been. yeah, PTMLFU. she told me this which until today i have not found out the real answer, ROFL. maybe is just a "FU" at the end of the statement.

in most cases, i would refer her as childish. or maybe something we call "immature". or what so ever.

alright, maybe i'm not in her shoes so i do not know what exactly have happen.

sometimes all this happen i would call this "KARMA".

VLLF have treated me like this before, so what goes around comes around. i have never blamed anyone for what have happens as all this is part of life. maybe its a time for me n VLLF to go through, to see how much we love each other.

i might never have the chance to be with VLLF again, as she have choosen a HKSC. i ain't gonna be sad over what happen, if possible, i would just go back to my single life which i think would be a good time right now, as i can focus on finding more money and friends which i lack of right now.

by this time, VLLF is already going to airport. well, all the best to VLLF and CWLC. i realize i lost 2 person in less than 2 days, LOL.

It's a morale there is a morale to be learnt which only i, myself know it.

dear,

its been a week since i ever wrote to you.. but to me, i stil have the same words...who would even give a fuck on my blogs or post. im not anyone popular nor am i someone important.

yeah, for the question of " then why are you still writing this blog?" my answer would be "its none of your business on what ever shits i do, as long as i know what shit i get. you can leave right now if you do not want to continue any further down."

well, for this weeks update, let me tell you bout something which i have been keeping for sometimes. it might be considered a secret but, i think a lot of peepz out there have know this very well.

do you all know what brand uses a rabbit as their signs? PLAYBOY
yes, playboy. though my looks is like shit, and i am poor, with nothing in my hand and my wallet, i still can seduce girls. ROFL. maybe its just my mere luck, or sometimes i would call it an attraction. but attraction? LOL, what do i have to make someone attracts to me? im not so sure, but i have a skill, a job which i think i may succeed in if i do it...

some says my acting skills are very good, especially my ex. im not so sure whether should i even post this out, cos i think my girl will leave me after this. LOL

anyway, that was forever ago...

just voicing out to let myself feel better

dear,

im doin this alone. not that someone brought me into this stage, maybe its just a destiny. probably you are gonna start a fight, but this aint right, i know you know. i had loved you endlessly though you werent there for me. so now its time for me to leave, and make it on my own.

i know that i cant take no more, it aint no lie. yeah, i know it would be breaking my heart, but i had enough of L-O-V-E.

sometimes im wondering, am i the player in the game for 2, or did im just the victim. i dont really wanna make it tough, but i just had enough. and yes, i totally agree with my life would be better once you disappeared from my life.

im giving up i know for sure, though there is a tiny chance, but im totally out of this game. i dont wanna be the reason for both of you, having to quarrel, and also not in love. i know both of you are in love. so lets take a time out.

dear,

if you give up on a plan A, you gotta make sure plan B go smooth. sometimes plan A might have a lil hope which no one realize it until its too late. never give up on plan A until plan B is successful. its a lesson i learn recently through a book i read.

in my life, i have taken so many life changing choices. and so do you all. one will never know the ending before it comes.

i look upon you, as my true hero. a hero which saves me from the ripper, however u left me in mute. i wasnt able to speak, to tell, to describe, the hurt in heart. i hate this feel. i hate that i love you. why would someone turn their back on me, after they save me? well, you have left me feeling numb. i have no feeling towards anyone or even anything now.



i give up on every plan i have now as i know, nothing much is better than being alone, spending time on family, so much more we can do with a single life.

thanx to those who have done so to me

dear,

yesterday night or maybe some call it this morning, a line have been drawn in my life. i was still unable to overcome my obstacles before. as of yesterday, i think and i hope everything will be fine from now onwards.

vicky liew - a very nice girl i ever known in my entire life. she will accompany you through ups and downs together. she cry when u cry, she laugh when u laughs.

clovey wong - though i just knew her for that short lil time, she save me out from being a silly person in my life which is the relationship. she showed me what this world mean.

vicky liew change my life a lot. and i mean really A LOT. and only she knows, i know, god knows. she might be childish and naughty at times, but this is her character and attitude. its not fair to change her. i have done so much for her, but she dont notice anything? can u see the details, and not see the pict as a whole? every lil details, completes the pict. you never appreciated what i have done for you.

clovey wong appeared in my life to tell me that not to be a stupid person. her advice was to be the man in charge and not let anyone lead my life. her advice was, indeed, very true. somehow for the words she said, my heart fell for her. i have never have this feeling with the opposite sex in the last 3 years.

all i ever wanted for the last 3 years was just vicky vicky and vicky. she was everything to me. i can give up anything for her which i know myself, is very sofo haifai. she save me out of thins thinking, she showed me what the world may mean. she show me i still have my family to care. i really would like to thank her with all my heart. if she did not appear, i, will still be, the silliest person ever.