Silent Lover

dear,



Here i am down with disappointment once again. and i still knows that no one cares, no one bears this down with me. and im still walking this road alone. though from the outer look, it seems that im cheerful and carefree, deep inside me anyone knows? i dont think even you know.

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I ain't surprise with how you have treated me lately, and im writing here is not to let anyone knows what happen between us, but is more to a place where i could express myself. Im definitely not happy, and im for sure fucking angry. yes im, damn it.

Is this what we call Karma? What goes around come around right? Alright then... I get it.

I wanna express how my feeling is right now, but not a word in English which could describe it. maybe a lil story could show it. imagine this, you are a mom/dad and you have a child. your child behaves perfectly infront of you, his studies are so well, he could be a heavy breadwinner for your household. he gives you every promises and fulfill them, he is the perfect child. but a social influence in college, gets him down with drugs, weeds, and every other stuff you can think about. and you caught him doing so, well, the best part is, he blames you for what he is right now. is because of every excuses he can think of. how would you feelings be? if you can get deep into the examples, you would understand how i feel.

i have given everything i could, i have been a better person. did you not notice or am i not doing great enough? do you even need to lie and get everything done behind my back? or is it time for a "GAME OVER"?

i really cant handle this anymore, i have been very suffering myself. and you keep telling me you are suffering? i fucking dont understand.